Friday, September 30, 2016

This is the last time

I lose my senses over you
(Purple haze, 3 long island ice teas)

The day before

My world came crashing down

I dreamt of myself underground
With faint light shining above me
Above a closed ceiling
And i climbed and climbed
Struggling to get to the light
And the distance never seemed
To reduce
I was suffocating
Trying to reach that illusive
Light

How apt
To figure out
That it was the light
Of understanding

And now that i cannot
sleep any more
There are no dreams
To point out the signs

Sunday, September 25, 2016

Arjun Says,

Taking up my bow
I found myself unequal to even string it.
The might that had existed in my arms seemed to have
disappeared on that occasion.
O great ascetic, my weapons of diverse kinds
failed to make their appearance.
Soon, again, my shafts became exhausted.
That person of immeasurable soul, of four arms,
wielding the conch, the discus, and the mace,
clad in yellow robes, dark of complexion, and possessing
eyes resembling lotus-petals, is no longer seen by me.
Alas, reft of Govinda, what have I to live for,
dragging my life in sorrow?
He who used to stalk in advance of my car,
that divine form endued with
great splendour and unfading puissance,
consuming as he proceeded all hostile warriors,
can no longer be seen by me.
No longer beholding him who
by his energy first burnt all hostile troops
whom I afterwards despatched
with shafts sped from Gandiva,
I am filled with grief and my head swims,
O best of men.
Penetrated with cheerlessness and despair,
I fail to obtain peace of mind.
I dare not live, reft of the heroic Janardana.
As soon as I heard that Vishnu had left the Earth,
my eyes became dim
and all things disappeared from my vision.

for I am now a wanderer with an empty heart

- Ved Vyas

Deflate

That moment when
all the dreams come crashing down
My hands simply lost the energy
To hold them up

Because it was you
Who held them up
Buoyed them up
Made them fly
Made me belive
I could get there

Till a moment ago
I had a thousand dreams
And nothing could stop me

And now suddenly,
There is nothing

Not a single dream
To light up my night
To wake me up in the morn

Each of us

In our own bubbles of loneliness

Thank you for giving me

The last thing i wanted from life