Woes unlimited

When they said

That after marriage and children 

You stop thinking 

About anything else

I somehow

Assumed

Foolishly 

That they meant

It was because you would be

Happy in it

Turns out it's the exact opposite 

There is just ap much to do

So much to, so much to worry about 

So much to argue, so much to compromise 

That you have no time 

For anything else

Either or

It's been a while

That I often think 

Of how 

Will and Lyra's story ended

They knew 

That while one lives

The other cannot survive 

That they would wither

In each other's lands

And what I thought

Was fantasy

Comes back to haunt me

Again and again

Because it is true

Every day, every where

For every people 

That none can survive 

In alien lands

Alien hands

And each would wither

In the other's sanctuary 

And so Will and Lyra 

Parted ways

Just so that

They could each 

Live full lives

And this

Was greater to them

Than being together 

If only 

I had had

That courage 

Cork

The image 

That comes to mind

Is a piece of wood

Flung into water

It is sinking

As most things will

In water

But then,

It is wood

Not stone

It's nature 

Is not to sink

It is to float

And so it will

It is just

A matter of time

So is life

And I wait

Wait wait

Deep in the depths of sinking

For the bounce to come back

For the moment of floating

When I break the surface 

And take deep lungfuls of air

And breathe 

And float along lazily 

I wait 

But the wait 

Too heavy to shake off

And I sink

Struggle to float

And sink again 

Geeta

You must do what you must do

Without caring about the results 

You must remove yourself 

Completely 

From the results

From feeling anything 

Not because 

You don't care

But because 

If you only care

You cannot do

What you need to do

Live

To the question of

Where do you live

If you are

Not to be yourself 

Anywhere, with anyone 

The answer is

Alone

You live alone

And nowhere else

The key

Then 

Is to kill yourself 

Ignore feelings 

Entirely 

To not look for

Ways to soak and spread 

And flower and bloom

In the harsh glare 

That is society 

And instead 

To spread yourself thin

Dip your toe

Test the waters

And withdraw 

Constantly 

Only spread your roots

Nay, not roots

But let down a tentacle

Only when it is right

Smile, agree, nod, laugh

For as long as needed

Feeling not a bit of it

Feeling 

Is not necessary here

Only acting is

Only doing what you need to do

And conserve

Your strength 

Live inside your head

Bide your time 

Until

You can let down your guard

Sigh

Close your eyes

And bloom

Let jungles rise from you

Destiny

Everything 

That happened before

Happened 

So that I could accept you

And appreciate 

How precious you are