why i dream of you

because i believe u have all the answers

Star dust

When life gets mudane
I remind myself that i am made of stardust.

Actually, we all are,

But you, and i, my dear
Must surely have come
from the same star!

Thanks again to anoopam axl

Aftershocks

And when i part from you
I want you to reverberate in me
For days afterwards

Insecurities

Don't drink when I am gone,
 it will ruin your liver

Don't smoke,
or your lungs will go up  in smoke

Don't hang out too late with the guys,
it ruins your sleep and gives you pimples

Don't you DARE overstuff yourself,
you will get fat, and you don't want that,
do you baby?

So many instructions for my baby

An observer might be forgiven
That it's because I care so much
When inside, deep down
I just don't want you to enjoy anything without me
Enjoy anything, more than me
In truth, I am just scared
That when I see you,
I won't recognize you
Because something else will have taken the place
Of your love for me

I am just scared
That something will steal you away from me

In truth, I just want you all by myself


Thanks to Anoopam Axl for the inspiration

poem to me

If I had you forever
I would hear a new poem about me every day

One more reason to add to the list of
#why I miss you

appearances matter

if you want to attract that handsome stranger
it is not enough
to be intersted in him
in fact, it is not important
or even necesssary
to be in interested in him

it is only necessary
to appear to be interested

and if you want to be loved
by that handsome acquaintance
it is not enough
to be in love with him
or to adore him with all your heart and soul

you don't have to love him
or care about him
you only have to appear
to do so

and the more perfect the art,
(with as much practice as possible)
the more chances you have

ah, to be ready

maybe those who are loved
are loved
because they are ready for it

maybe it is important
to be ready

in other words
to put love
on top of the list

above rules
above ambitions
above images
above fears

*** the rules
that i believed it
and wasted so much time!

touched by a star

today i met someone
who has been truly touched by a star
and glows all the time
even in the midst of
mud and grime

having waited forever for my own star
i m so jealous
and yet, happy
at least i know it exists :)

i want a cameo

the way you reigned over my dreams
in the morning i wondered
if it was indeed me who dreamt it
or if it was your dream, starring you

or maybe, it was wishful thinking
i wanted it to be your dream
because i too, had a cameo in it 

नज़र यति तृषित छन् कि

जन्म दिनमा तिमीले पठाएको फूल
म सम्म आइपुग्दा ओइलिसकेछ
भ्यालेन्टाइन डेमा पनि त
एउटा ख्यार ख्यारे फोन कलले चित्त बुझाउनु पर्यो
यो पाली नयाँ वर्षको संकल्प
अरु कसैको हात समातेर गरेछौ
र था छैन अब कति वर्ष
गरी रहने छौ 

आजकल त यादै हुन छोड़िसके
क्यालेन्डर का यी राता दिनहरु

जुन दिन तिमी फेरी
घाम झुल्के झैं देखा पर्ने छौ प्रिये,
अर्को वर्ष देखी
त्यो दिन क्यालेन्डर मा चढ्ने छ 

Laxmi puja in the wilderness

The sky is so much more spectacular
When the earth is dimmer

all roads lead to heaven - हरेक पुल तिमी सम्म पुग्ने बाटो हो

तिमी देखिन्छौ  कि भन्ने आसमा
निकै कप चिया पिएँ
तिम्रो घर नजिकै को भट्टी पसलमा

तिम्रो खबर  पाइन्छ कि भनेर
निकै चोटी नमस्ते गरें
रोकेर तिम्री आन्टीलाई बीच बाटोमा

आखिर सबै
तिमी सम्म पुग्ने
सेतु न हुन

तर यी पुल तरेर तिमी सम्म भने
कहिल्यै पुग्न सकिएन

"छोडदेउ यस्ता पुराना पुल -सेतु  "
भन्थे मेरा जान्ने बुझ्ने बहिनीहरु 
"आजकल को जमानामा
बाटा र पुलको के कुरा !!!
हवाई मार्ग नै खुला छन् !!"

नभन्दै खोजेर ल्याइदिए
तिम्रो इमेल एड्रेस र फेसबुक सजेसन
हो त नि भन्दै घर बाट बाहिर निस्किनै  छोडें म
पुल मुनि आन्टी लाई ढुके जस्तै ढुकें
तिम्रो आगमनलाई

एउटा कमेन्ट एउटा हेलो
एउटा सानो लाइक  भए पनि हुन्थ्यो !
केहि त थिचेको भए हुन्थ्यो !!!
मैले त ड्र ब्रिज उघारेकै थिएँ
तिमीले त
आधा कदम मात्रै न हिंड्नु थियो !!

तर अहँ,
तिमीलाई शायद
यस्ता भर्चुअल सेतु देखी वितृष्णा छ!
तिम्रो नामको छेउ मा
मरे हरियो बत्ती बले पो!!


निकै दिनको पर्खाई पछि
आखिर केहि नचलेर
लाचार भएर
फेरी म आइपुगें
तिम्रै बाटोमुनी को पुलमा

" :) नमस्ते :) आन्टी :) !" 

Self esteem

Why does it
Have to be raised
Again and again
everyday
By being reminded of
latest accomplishments?

(Heaven help the day
when the last two days were blank)

Once blown up,
Why can't it last for ever?
Or months?
Or at least a week?

removing rose tints

If every loved one who died, baby,
Became a star,
Then i wonder how many people
Have to share a star each

मैले मन पराउन नसकेको मान्छे

कोशिश गरेपछि त 

ढुंगा पनि पग्लन्छ रे 

म त झन् एउटी 

साधारण नश्वर 

हरेक पल नया नया मान्छे संग बिताईएर 

छरीएर टुक्रिएको जिन्दगीलाई 

तिमीले जोड्ने जब कष्ट गर्यौ ,

मैले नै बिर्सिसकेका पललाई 

जब तिमीले सम्हालेर राख्यौ, 

बाटो हराएकी मलाई 

जब तिमीले डोर्यायौ, 

तिमी 

बन्यौ मेरो जिन्दगीलाई जोड्ने धागो 

तिमी  

बन्यौ मेरो आँसु पोख्ने भाँडो

तिमी 

नै थियौ मेरो संसार 

तर अलौकिक सुन्दरताले मोहनी लगाएको मेरो मन 

यो संसारमा कहाँ अडिन्थ्यो  र !

तिम्रै न्यानो मायाले नै 

मलाई हरेक रात मस्त निन्द्रामा पनि मुस्कान दियो,

तर पनि 

तिमी सधैँ रहयौ 

मैले मन पराउन नसकेको मान्छे 

मलाई थाहा छैन 

तिमीलाई मन नपाराउनु 

टेकेको धरती माथि अन्याय हो 

वा होइन 

तर यति कुरामा म ढुक्क छु,

गल्ती कबोल गर्नु भन्दा अगाडी नै 

तिमीले मलाई माफ गर्ने छौ


मैले मन पराएका मान्छेहरु 

बिना 

जय 

प्रमोद 
ऋचा  

Falling in love with you

Like a woman falls in water
With a rock tied to her waist.

Graceful.
Peaceful.
Restful.
And finally,
Final.

Impossible wishes

I wish i had grown up with you