Heartbreak

So little you need

To break a heart

Why don't you come see me, 

she said

A heart full of trepidation, 

Hoping for a yes

Conscious, of the long, long miles

between then

And still, hoping, 

For a yes

Because, he had said often, 

How much she meant to him

It should be an exuberant yes

It should be, I was saving up for this

I was waiting for this sign from you

But when he spoke

It was far, far from her plane

Do you think it will make me happy?

He asked

And just like that

She, who had wanted to hear

I will do everything to make you happy

was 

crestfallen

Baggage mountain

Hurt piled upon hurt

Wound layered upon wound

I seethed

With words unsaid

Actions never begun

Just a seething

Just a raging flame

That i fanned

Until it grew and grew

And i glowed from the inside

All along

I waited

For something

Someone

The answer

To the flame

Apparently it was

All for you

So that you would

Come and

Not necessarily

Salve those wounds

Or heal those hurts

Or douse those flames

But so that

I could scorch you

With the fire

Burn one person

With the fire

Fed by

All of humanity

For eternity

(No apology

Is ever enough)

तिलस्म

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