Clowns are the loneliest

They say
Those  who make a living 
By making  others  laugh
Are the ones
In need of a laugh

So must  those
Who pursue  secrets
Be in quest  of
Delicate  nurturing
Of their own soul 

What men want

You wonder why a man offers 
A kiss to reconcile
Or a hug or a make-out
And says nothing
About the issue at hand
As if it will solve itself
With a kiss

And then you learn 
That it is because 
That is what he would like

Give a kiss and all anger
Is forgiven

Forgiveness heals

The thing  with  forgiveness  is that
It only heals you
If you arrive at it
With much trouble 
Go through  the whole rigmarole
The denial, the anger 
The disconnect with the outside world
And then arrive at
Compassion
Like an inevitability 
Like succor, like relief
Like blessings

If you  make a habit of it
And are able to forgive 
Murder
At the blink  of an eye

Forgiveness 
Is the same as
Indifference 

intoxication

when intoxication nudges
your most guarded secrets
out of you
 
you feel unfaithful
to yourself

because you had not
admitted the secrets
even to yourself
(to your 'true', waking self,
that is)

and so you wonder
which one of you is the 'true' you
the one who guards the secrets
or the one who swims in it

and then you begin to understand

why some people
worship the drink
for it flings away 
inhibitions
like nothing else
and sets you free

and why some others
hate it
for it flings away your
inhibitions
without which you
do not recognize yourself

redemption

is redemption possible
after being used
and abused
and lied to
and manipulated?

indeed it is,
redemption lies in taking control
in ravishing yourself
for yourself

the only problem is
finding enough love
to be able to do so

Intimacy

Only two things make a woman
Feel safe enough
To blurt all her secrets
And it is no wonder that
The first of them is discouraged,
With the hangovers it induces.

And strangely,
The other,
Even without hangovers or liver decay
But instead with the extraordinary power
To relieve all stress
Fatigue
And make a woman happy
Like nothing else
Is also discouraged

Because it also makes a man
Feel safe enough to blurt everything
Because it makes a man
Weak in his own eyes.

What you mean to me

I don't know if I will ever have
the courage to say this to you