Saturday, October 8, 2016

The ability to be vulnerable, you said

It is your strength, you said

Maybe it is, and maybe it is not

When that's what causes
People to know, understand, 
And realize they can manipulate you
Again and again

It certainly doesn't seem like strength

All i know is that
The next time too
This is how i will be
Despite the number of times
It has broken my heart 

Because it is the only true way to be
Because you gain nothing if
You don't put yourself at stake

Because it is a brave, brave thing to do
To bare your heart and bear the consequences 

Never mind

I'll find
Someone like you

-Adele

(How could I settle
for anything lesser
now?)

Wednesday, October 5, 2016

Tuesday, October 4, 2016

ego boost

when will you stop
looking for validation
in little green bubbles
and pinging noises

and how long after that
will you stop expecting
and waiting at all

Monday, October 3, 2016

Hypocrisy

I may bite my nails
And stroke my hair
And fondle my face
But
Whatever little confidence
I manage to produce
In spite of my
awkward body language
Is real

While you
Are all bluster
And no matter

Sunday, October 2, 2016

My number is 1

How soon the heart warms
To the possibility of
creation
adventure
joy

I must be a phoenix

Distractions

Company
Entertainment
Friends
Movies
Books

They all work for me
Eventually help me heal

Does that make me callous?