Warmth

Sleeping well
In the warmth of
human proximity

Makes me realize what i
Take for granted

And how much it means
As opposed to loneliness

Dealing with grief (or trying to)

You think ahead
Realize exactly how
The stages are going to go
Fortify yourself
And skip the four steps
Going directly to acceptance

Tell yourself there is no use raging
No use complaining and boring people
No use drowning yourself in tears
Coz in the end you have to accept it
There is no way around it

So why don't you do it right away
Bottle the four steps
Sweep them under the carpet
And get on with your life

Act nonchalant
Impress with your maturity
Tell yourself it is
The sensible thing to do

Then act surprised when
They pop up in your dreams

I used to

Go to sleep with a smile

husk

I gave you
My heart and soul
And now I have nothing
Left for myself

Let alone
Any chances for you

I should have known

it used to be that
I did not feel lonely
even when we were
seven seas apart
because I felt
your presence
with me

and when I started
feeling lonely
with you

I should have known

तिमी बिनाको

जिन्दगानी त
कसरी नै पो काटुँ है

- बिपुल छेत्री

Clean conscience, they said

You will sleep well,
They said.
If you have done no wrong,
They said.

How wrong they were.