the long winter

i thought the winter
when it rained and rained and rained
and we walked with sloshing water in our shoes
was the worst

and then i thought the winter
when there was no gas and no heat
and no petrol and we walked and cycled
and we got bone tired every day
frustrated with haggling the daily necessities
and going to sleep crying with frustration
i thought that was the worst winter of all

and then i thought the winter
when i piled on stress and ate to curb
and then piled on fat in layers of layers
i thought that was the worst

how wrong i was
when the worst was yet to come
worse than all of them put together