soul, not heart

Who was the first girl you liked?

"It doesn't matter,

since I like you the most"

With whom did you spend 

the best Valentine's day?
"You, of course"


Lies, lies, all lies
Though you may not call them so


Weathered by years of experience, 
I see
you want to make it
nice for me
you want to avoid
hurt and acrimony


what started out as concern 
has
after many lovers
become your second nature


i know i am supposed to 
appreciate it
but  i do not want your
niceness and politeness
the mask of diplomacy
the veneer of courtesy
i do not want your heart
and its delicacy


i want your soul 
with all its intricacy
i want a friendship
with all its honesty


i want you
with all your complexity