today #feels

today it feels like
i will give up everything
for you

i know you do not want it, but

today when i wake up sobbing
to dreams of you
when melancholy songs
remind me of you
when your absence hurts
with an aching pain

today i would exchange everything
for one moment with you
for one of your smiles

post script:
if i miss you,
am i allowed to tell you
how much i miss you?

(I guess not)

maybe i don't love you enough
to break your rules
or maybe i love you enough
to set you free