I tell myself i can deal with it
I tell myself i am fealing with it
This is my way of doing it
By working, by keeping busy
But apparently i tell myself
Many lies
For if all was well
The tears would not come
Flowing down
When i see you
The truth is
The tears do not mean
That i am unhappy
They mean
That i was telling myself
Many lies
And this way of coping
Has many flaws
And a better way to cope
Would be to have you around
They mean
That it is quite overwhelming
To see you
That it means
Just too much
The energy between us
Is just too great
And i try to ignore it
By acting normal
But then
It´s not possible
To ignore something
That means so much...
Maybe i seek solace
I pretend i don't need it
I pretend i am doing okay
But the truth is
apparently i do need solace
But it is so difficult to say
That my body
Decides to take
Matters into its own hands
Don´t worry
Just hold me
Just remember
That it means
I am happy to see you
Relieved to let go
Of everything that has been
Bothering me
Relieved to express
What i have been
Suppressing all along
Just hold me for a bit
And it will be okay
I will come around
Very soon
To your heartwarming presence
And smile :)
