Ephemeral

There was a time

When I used to feel

That life was just beginning

All the time, I felt

There is so much to explore

Back in my spring

And my summer

That lasted eons

I guess now,

Autumn has set in

And I fear how little time

I have left

To savor, to enjoy

All that the world has to offer

On a chilled, foggy day

Walking the frosted streets

All by myself

Wrapped up in my own thoughts

I lament

How late

I discovered

The joy

Of such days

The oneness

That gloom brings

The way it draws you

Unto yourself

And concentrates your essense

Inside, within

And so little time,

So little

To enjoy days like this

To enjoy

Thoughts

Bubbling

And percolating

Life, so magnified

When you stop living

On the fast lane

It's all personal

They say you shouldn't

Take things personally

And yet

If I smile

Through your rejection

Of me

Then who am I

What kind of monster am I

What do I have 

To smile about anyway

If you do not smile

Back at me