frying pan or fire?

if i cannot have you
for the whole journey
i would rather have you
for two steps
than not at all

i m glad
you strayed across
the path of my life
i m glad
our paths crossed
for a few ephemeral moments

it turned out to be
no more than two steps, ultimately
but i will take it,
rather than walk through life
without an inkling that
dreams do come true sometimes

having you

means that
i can give up
what hurts me
however hard it is

because i know that
whatever i give up,
i m not alone

what doesn't kill, makes you stronger

having lost you
means that
i know i can survive
any other loss

Midwest from my eyes

Dandelions in the spring

Tulips in the summer

Insanely glorious iridescence in the fall

Gently swirling snow in the winter




























I am really jealous of people
Who live in real picture postcards all the year round

the ice maiden

you
make me wistful
for myself

i buy new dresses
i get a new haircut
fish out the lost eye liner
stuck behind the heavy closet.
after trying everything.
when i finally belive that
i can face you,
once again facebook tells me
that i will never be
as ethereally dressed
or as effortlessly beautiful
as you

(perhaps it is just as well
that facebook is here
i would probably
not survive your aura
if i came across it
sudden and unprepared
in real life)

(when will i stop
holding myself up
to your standards?)

what a woman wants

is a reiteration
of your attraction
and commitment
again and again
everyday

breaking the news to you

broke me apart