The key

Then 

Is to kill yourself 

Ignore feelings 

Entirely 

To not look for

Ways to soak and spread 

And flower and bloom

In the harsh glare 

That is society 

And instead 

To spread yourself thin

Dip your toe

Test the waters

And withdraw 

Constantly 

Only spread your roots

Nay, not roots

But let down a tentacle

Only when it is right

Smile, agree, nod, laugh

For as long as needed

Feeling not a bit of it

Feeling 

Is not necessary here

Only acting is

Only doing what you need to do

And conserve

Your strength 

Live inside your head

Bide your time 

Until

You can let down your guard

Sigh

Close your eyes

And bloom

Let jungles rise from you