courage

After pushing herself
up and out
Of the depths of abysses

She had stopped believing
That the gods had any purpose

It all seemed random
With thousands and thousands
victimised for no reason
by an indifferent universe

And the only way of getting out
was making your own effort
grabbing the bull by the horns

And she saw
the inshalla school of thought
as a sign of weakness
used by people
who did not want to make
their own decisions
or were not willing to
make efforts

an intense need
to control your life
to disdain anything else
that portends to
have agency over it

but then that is turning
a blind eye
to the cycles of time
to the waves of destiny
that flood the whole world
and not just you

a great courage she had built up
in turning destiny around
in her favour

but then a greater courage
lay ahead

the courage to accept
what will happen
the courage to submit
to things she cannot control

life is always
walking on
the edge of a sword

on one side
is the great cowardice
of ignorant submission
that degenerates into
Indolence and decay

on the other
is the need to hold
everything in your palms
spiralling into
anxiety and agitation

and the fine, fine balance of
doing your thing
keep doing your thing
but also accept
that what will happen
will happen


**
"Why is it, O Krishna,
that some men do no karma of their own
and yet get the results of bhagya?

It is true, O Arjuna
that some men get the results of bhagya
without doing ay karma of their own
but that is no excuse
for you to not do what you need to do"