Saturday, April 22, 2017

Under currents

She watches him watch the tv
From the corner of her eyes
And the next time he walks
The gangsta walk
She knows where he got it from

She sees the little girl next door
Tell a story
And when she hears it from him
With great conviction
She knows how far
He has gone from her

**
I thought i knew you best
In this whole wide world
No one knew you better than me

And yet i knew you not
As a mother knows her child,
I found out
**
When you started taking me
To places you heard about
I should  have asked you where
you heard about them
When you got the travel bug
I knew it wasn't my type
And when i saw your scars
I knew i would never give you them

And yet i did not know you enough
To follow these currents back
To where they came from
**
Your shifty eyes
Should have given you away
Time and again
And yet they did not
For i did not know you
As well as your mother did
Even though i thought
I knew you best
**

Wendy's mother
opened up wendy's mind
and saw peter pan inside

When I opened up your mind,
I did see some strange things in there
but not strange people

Wendy's mother 
would not have been 
puzzled by the things
as I was
**

When did you start  
moving away from me?
when did you start
accumulating strangers in there?
And how did I not realize?

And why was I 
completely taken aback
when these strangers confronted me
and more than that, 
when I was faced
with your love for them
far more than any love
i had known from you

How did you manage to
hide the strangers from me?
**

Of course, 
I am not wendy's mother
But still I thought I knew you best
Apparently it's never enough
Apparently a mother can
not be replaced

And i thought I could
make up for what you lost
(Apparently not)

I could say i was going to,
and you did not let me
(that's how i justify it
to myself)

But if I had loved you best
I would not have left

Wendy' mother
would not have left
just because she found
peter in there

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